Oh June, June, June. By the time June gets here I’m more than ready for the summer heat, maybe not the heat so much but the water play that comes with it. Madison is such a water baby, she don’t care how cold the water is, she will be the first in it! The only problem with June is the dreaded question of what do I wear to play in the water with my daughter?
I’m overweight…. It’s weird to say and it’s weird to be also. So you say the word swim suit and my heart melts a little inside. Not because I want to be some skinny mom with her tiny stomach and two piece swimsuit (although that would be nice haha) but mostly because I want to be able to be comfortable and go play in the water with my daughter. You know the overweight or even just self-conscious moms who swim in t-shirts and shorts? That’s me… minus the fact that even shorts make me cringe. There is nothing wrong with it but there is no doubt about it, you are the oddball out while everyone else swims in swimsuits.
So last summer was the first time I had gotten in the pool in a while and now today it’s so hot my husband wants to take my daughter swimming. And I turned around in my closet and was like “here we go again, another summer, another swimsuit season”. But then I had remembered how last year played out and how much fun I had so I smiled while I put my shorts on.
I’m not saying ‘be ok’ with being overweight, I’m saying ‘be ok’ with being you. I think eating right and exercising and being healthy should be a part of your life and while I haven’t found my losing weight success yet, I’m still working on that. I want to live a long healthy life watching my daughter grow up and so I understand the importance and need to get myself healthy. But the point I’m trying to make here is that while you’re working on that, don’t miss out on your life now, the moments you have now. My daughters not gonna be two for very long and she’s growing up so fast that I’m like who cares what others think of me, I’m not missing this moment right now because of what a stranger thinks of me or even family for that matter. I want my daughter to look back and remember the times she went swimming with mommy in the pool, she won’t even remember what I was wearing, so why should I.