It seems funny we finally are able to have children through foster to adopt and there are still people making idiot remarks about my infertility.
One reason why infertility is such a struggle to get through is because everything is secret about it. People go years without saying anything and just feeling this sense of loss, the sense of not being good enough. Years and years of questioning God as to why he hasn’t given you the gift of a child. It’s a long lonely road that I believe only very strong women can get through. It messes with your head, it messes with your marriage, it messes with who you are as a person. It’s years of wanting to grieve over the loss of not having a child mixed with the tiny little hope that you could still have a child. It’s a REAL LIFE battle.
So on top of all of that to have some idiot just walk past you and just poke and pry into your life is like someone popping a bubble that’s been growing for years and you just cry.
I am so blessed right now to be in the process of adopting a little baby girl who I’ve waited and worked so hard for but that doesn’t mean that people are going to stop being mean.
I can’t even imagine saying some of the things people say to me. Yes I cry about it…. For a second then I wipe my tears and move on because I don’t need that in my life.
God made me tough. That’s why He gave me infertility.