It feels so crazy to me to setup my house in preparation for a child. So many thoughts go through my head, what kind of child are we going to get? age? gender? Will it be the kid screaming in the middle or the store, or the kid hiding in a corner, or even the kid dancing in front of everyone.
The unknown is definitely frightening to say the least. Especially when you've never been a parent before.
More questions flood through my head... What are they going to call us? What if they miss their "real" mom and dad? What if they're too much for us to handle? All the what if's you could ever think of have been flooding my brain since our orientation last week.
It doesn't help that the process is a LOT faster then we ever thought. Usually a new mom has 9 months to think about and setup her house for her new child.
I have about 6 weeks. And I am starting from scratch on absolutely everything. And to prepare for a child that is 2 and under and don't know the gender is so tough! I can't buy clothes or diapers or anything pertaining to a certain age until I get my first call and the child is walking through my door.
Kind of Crazy, my mind is overwhelmed BUT amongst all this, I am absolutely excited and so blessed to have a husband just as excited and helping me get everything ready.
My family and friends have also been amazing, they are throwing me a baby shower. I tear up at just the thought of one for me, 8 years of watching everyone else go through shower after shower and me usually planning them, the fact that it's my turn is beyond exciting!
I don't think I can prepare my heart for foster care. I know and fully understand the risks of foster care and reuniting the children with their "real" parents, but I'm going to look at it this way, if I can make them feel loved in the short or long amount of time of having them, then that will be ok with me. And if God brings me a child that I can adopt, I know it will be the child that God has hand picked for me.
Trusting God in every step!
If you would like to donate to our Foster Care Fund we could sure use the help. Click the paypal link below. The money will be going towards getting our house prepared for our home study and for the new child. We so appreciate any help!