It’s been a long hard journey for my mother-in-law Dolores, she passed away Thursday at 6:11am. She suffered with a bad heart her entire life and only just started telling her story on her blog here.
Back in April she received her brand new heart but her liver and kidneys were not doing so well so they were going to put her on the transplant list for both until she got a really bad infection that she just couldn’t beat.
On Wednesday my husband was listening to the doctors tell them that they were going to stop the machines that were keeping her alive and that they could possibly wait 24 to 48 hours so that everyone could come say there goodbyes. We jumped in the car and headed 8 hours down to West Hollywood, Cedar Sinai Hospital.
As I watched my husband, his dad and brother crying at her bedside, I couldn’t help but cry myself. When you think of a supportive wife, you think of hugs and calming words, but that’s just not me or something I know how to do well. I know if it were me, I would want time alone with her to just cry and so I let my husband do just that and when he came out to the waiting room he was grateful I was just there.
It’s the hardest thing ever to watch someone cry, who rarely ever cries. I can’t even imagine the pain of losing your mother and while I know the road ahead looks long and sad without her, we can rejoice in the fact that she is in a better place. A place with no pain or worries, stress or heartache.
She’s with Jesus now but she will be missed greatly until we see her again.