So every year our church does an annual fast and for the last few years my husband and I have done the Daniel Fast which is mostly just veggies, fruits, nuts and things like that.
I remember the first year we took the fast seriously, we told God that we wanted a child and we just knew by the end of the fast we were going to get one. I remember calling my dad about a week after the fast crying telling him I just knew I was pregnant and well when I took the test obviously it was negative. So the next fast came and we again tried the same thing but because my heart was let down from the previous year I didn't put my all into it and then the next few years came and went. What is funny though is that during the times of fasting specifically last year my husband was bound and determined to ask God for things and to get closer to God and even though we didn't get the things we put on our list to pray for God blessed us like crazy in other areas of our life.
I was at church this past Sunday and God really blessed me and spoke to my heart, he kind of renewed my spirit when it came to this fast. Last saturday the day before the fast started I was not looking foward to it at all, but God knew exactly what I needed to get my heart right and inspired to fast.
This fast I am going to make a list just like I did my previous fasts, it's a prayer list of what I feel like I should pray for. BUT this year I am going to do something different than past years... Instead of my entire fast just being focused on those specific things needed, my fast is going to be based on getting closer to God. I think that's my missing component. For the next 21 days I will be working hard on reading my bible, praying and spending quality time with my heavenly Father.
This time instead of expecting God to give me something at the end of the fast all I am expecting is for my relationship with God to get better and closer then it ever has. I am going to spend the next 21 days listening to what HE has to say and not just telling Him what I have to say.
I opened my bible this morning and God was already there to confirm that my plans for this years fast are right on track.
1 My child, listen to what I say,
and treasure my commands.
2 Tune your ears to wisdom,
and concentrate on understanding.
3 Cry out for insight,
and ask for understanding.
4 Search for them as you would for silver;
seek them like hidden treasures.
5 Then you will understand what it means to fear the Lord,
and you will gain knowledge of God.