When my infertility doctor picked up the phone I simply explained that my husband and I would like to start our infertility treatments again… She responded with “the last time we saw you was 2 years ago, we need another consultation from your OBGYN”.
TWO YEARS… wow, how time flies. Why has it been so long?
The number one reason with complete honesty is because I just don’t want to deal with it.
I know you’re thinking “don’t you want to have baby?” “What about all your posts where you’re crying inside for a child of your own? “
I understand how this doesn’t make any sense to you, the lady who has had a couple children. But in my world of infertility… NOTHING makes sense.
Going through this process last time was heartbreaking to say the least. After months of tests and classes and appointments and advice and shots and iui’s the journey is literally the hardest emotional rollercoaster that I have ever had to endure. Hence why it is so easy to put off for 2 years.
For the last couple months my husband and I have been trying to come up with a plan to cover the financial part of the treatments since his medical renews in december they gave us the option of adding a flexible spending account and so we will be able to pay through that which is a huge blessing. His medical covers 50% of all infertility treatments except of course the IVF which is very costly and a last on the list option for us, and then the FSA will cover the rest. So at this time we are good to go financially.
And to be honest I am not sure I am emotionally ready to go through this again but we feel since were getting older (were both almost 28) that we need to just buckle down and try while we are still young enough to have a good percentage of getting pregnant.
This is a tough process and I know the first time around I was so unprepared emotionally and also physically. I didn’t understand the stress and pressures that this included. I wish I would have had someone who had gone through all this to kind of walk me through it just to ease the worry alone.
And so this is why I want to share with you and all the ladies who have emailed me about your stories of infertility, my second “go” at this thing called infertility treatments. I want to be a support system to all of you. If your thinking about going through this process or have been through this before, let me know and we can be each other’s support systems.
My first appointment with the OBGYN will be Friday the 23rd. (HA, Black Friday) and so begins my journey AGAIN…
If you haven’t read my story you can read about it here.